To think, it was 365 days today, we had our first drink, our first dinner, our first kiss, and our first (soft) red. Well it was my first kiss, not sure you were kissing back… When you first walked in, you approached with this bubbly energy and magnetic aura. I was captivated as soon as laid eggs on you. I mean eyes* on you. and I remember thinking to myself, okay Michael this girl is actually the real deal, don't fuck it up. However, it wasn't long before I learned of your pre-date pizza, your beliefs that I should consider employing a form of hair loss treatment and that you were not afraid of pinching at my fat rolls. It started to dawn on me.... that despite my best efforts, I think I might be "fucking it up". But turns out you like balding men pushing 40 after all. We covered a lot of ground on that first date. I learned of your love for eating, our shared taste in philosophy & esoteric wisdom, and that we both had a drinking problem. Not going to lie, when I noticed how much food you away I was pretty sure right there and then you were the one for me. We did not know it at the time, but that night set in to motion themes that would define us for the year to come. We still both love to eat far too much, we can't go more than a week without a drink, and I am still a terrible driver.

baby, I love you so much. I have never met anybody quite like you or felt the way I do for anyone quite like the way I feel about you. When I look back and think about everything we have been through, I realise that even in the hard times, they are that much harder, not because of any distain towards you (though I regret it may come across that way), but because of how much you truly mean to me. Because no matter how wrong I get it, my frustrations always derive from the fear of hurting the one I love. It is an uncomfortable truth that because of our love, it has the propensity to bring about some of our worst pain. But that is why I always believed in our capacity to heal one another. We allow each other to access these feelings, and the only way out is through. it is through our pain, through our past, and through our hearts that offer our path to salvation. You offer me the keys to access mine, and I hope i can be (if not already) the keys to access yours. Not any one else have I crossed paths with that have offered me anything close to this. It is the beautiful side effect of finding someone I feel is my equal, someone I am proud to be with, someone who has my respect and my adoration. it is in your ambition, in your work ethic, in your capacity for feeling and understanding, in your wisdom, and in your nurturing heart that I see someone that I would be lost to be without.

Baby, it is no secret that I am pushing forty….. I was beginning to think, my time had run out to find someone to truly love, and care about. I thought i'd make the most of my time left and then call it quits, and maybe hang on the ceiling a lil… But then I met this girl on hinge, who saw me for who I am, not just a filmographer, real person behind my deceptively rugged, creative exterior. I feel truly blessed to have met you, to have you in my life, to have your love, and to be celebrating one whole year together.

I feel truly blessed each day I wake up next to you. I am madly in love with you and I wouldn't trade it for anything… not even a cucky. Hun, you are one of those rare individuals who have it all and sometimes I wonder what it is you even see in me. Thank you for everything you have given me these past 365 days. Thank you for everything you have done for me, you are not only smart, but the hardest working person I know. It is not enough that you are severely over capped at work giving it your all in a thankless position, but then you come home and find the strength to make me my chia pudding even when we both know I'm basically a lost cause and my bowels are shutting down before our very eyes. Yet you do it anyway. Because that's who you are. You are always willing to give a helping hand. That's something people just say but don't actually mean. But you truly embody that virtue. from setting up 98inch tv's in the middle of the night, to lending me your car, or cleaning my house even though i offered to help (at the end). You love to keep busy but you also love to just chill. Which is why i think we work so well. We both just want to sit around all day and watch anime but also love to work and get our hands dirty… well not physically dirty, I'm a princess but you get my point.

Thank you for existing, and for being my best friend, my lover, and my life partner. There is no one else on this earth I want to spend my evenings with, to chilly chat after and during work, to sit next to on the couch (formally known as the bouch, RIP). No one I want to laugh with more, talk about making cuckies with more, make popcorn and foolies and all the norlies with more… My drastic weight gain is a testament to these truths. Hun, it feels like we have been through so much in this one short year. And that is what this is, our first steps. yes we have fumbled here and there, but what do you expect from two retards learning to walk for the very first time. and just like the toddlers that we are, it will take a bit of time before walking becomes an effortless task. For us to mature and build out the muscles we need to keep each other balanced. I am committed to that task and will do everything i can so we can walk side by side.

Baby I love you, Happy anniversary. To at least 50 more. ❤️